I feel worse since the burial on Dec 17th. I have not really had any time to truly grieve. It was so horrific to not only witness mama's last breath, but to also see the funeral home take her away. I should have never watched. I guess I was in total shock to what was happening. Those two events are seared into my heart and soul. I had to take a job as quickly as possible to avoid becoming homeless, but it has been rough. I do break down occasionally at work. I'm alone when it happens. Does anyone else feel the total detached sensory experience? I did contact a potential grief therapist. They are expensive, but I think I'm going to meet with her for a couple of sessions. I miss mama soo much I just feel so empty and broken inside. I'm very grateful for finding this safe space to express my feelings. Thanks again everyone.
Sorry, but expect to be in deep grief for a good year or so. You could try and find a Grief group who meet on a regular basis, if the counselor costs too much. Ask your local Senior Center if they know about one.
Grief is a very hard journey, so just keep busy and focus on working. It will take time to get past the initial shock and sadness. I wish you strength and peace in your heart as time goes by.
Best of luck to you.
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Grief is the price we pay for loving someone so take your time and don't rush it. Be kind to yourself and take all the time you need.
And be grateful that you had a mom worth grieving over as not all of us have been as fortunate.
God bless you.
The funeral home told me I might want to leave the room as they took my mom out, and I did. I was with her, along with my sister when she took her last breath. My husband was there as well. I was stunned, and at times I still feel stunned. There are, of course, other things going on, as well, and so I try to do what I can. Yes, I do feel very detached at times.
In addition to Margaret’s idea about accessing possibly free counseling through your mother’s hospice or other provider, you may want to check out local grief support groups in your area, run by senior centers, community centers, churches, etc. My cousin attended such a group after a 1-2 punch of both her parents’ deaths in the span of two years or so, both difficult situations with lots of distressing care decisions to make. She said the support group really helped.
My suggestion would be to spend your money on some way to bring change into your life, rather than an expensive ‘grief therapist’. If your mother was getting medical treatment at the end, see if there is a counseling service attached to it that you could still access.